Have I Done Enough

"Study to show thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth."
II Timothy 2:15

It's early Sunday morning.  Sermon notes are prepared.  Prayers have been lifted to Father, asking Him to speak to every heart that will be present later today.  I've searched my heart, peeling open every layer asking Him to cleanse every part and fill me with His Holy Spirit.  But, as I sit here typing these words, one question runs through my mind:  Have I Done enough?

Oh yes, I have spent time reading and studying God's Word, but did I read and study enough?  Yes, I've prayed, sought God's face, confessed my sin and pleaded the blood of Christ seeking the power of His resurrection in my life, but could I have done more?  This is what fills the hearts and minds of pastor's each time they stand before their assigned flock but for the bivocational pastor I believe it is intensified by his tight daily schedule.

Work at the second job (yes, ministry is my first calling, my first responsibility, my first passion) must occur or the family may suffer.  Employers expect an honest days work for an honest days pay.  To give otherwise is a disgrace to our Savior.

Family must also be made a priority. Quantity of time given to family relationships must not be slighted in the name of quality time.  Wives and children as well as parents and siblings need to know they are important.

All of this is what brings me to this point every time I get to stand before my people to give them what our Father has given me.  It is a tremendous burden.  So, as you prepare to go to your church this morning, prayer for your pastor.  He is most likely asking himself the same questions and wondering, "Have I done enough?"